Misc Monday ~ in which there are not enough spoons

Many of you are probably already aware of the Spoon Theory. (Those of you who are not should read up on it. It’s a great way to describe energy rationing for those with chronic illness or disabilities. Even if this doesn’t impact you at all, it probably impacts one or more of your close friends or family members, whether or not you know it.)

Now, usually I have plenty of spoons. However, I do have occasional depressive tendencies. (I think many of us do, whether or not we acknowledge them.) I do not mean “ooh, you get sad a lot” when I refer to depression. I am referring to the more physical version, which comes with fatigue and a complete lack of energy or motivation to do anything. And I don’t mean that I don’t want to do my chores. When I get depressed, I don’t want to do anything. And I don’t have the energy for much, either. There are days when the only reason I get out of bed is because I have to go to work. (I don’t have bad enough episodes to prevent me from going to work on my worst days. I have it comparatively good, and I recognize that. But I have also learned not to belittle my issues just because “someone else has it worse”.)

Anyway, like I said, usually I have plenty of spoons. But last week, I had barely enough spoons for the entire early part of the week. I managed to do what I had to, and only what I had to. Once that was done, I collapsed on the couch, staring at the TV and not even really doing any crafting because even knitting or crocheting took too much energy.

This is something I am both used to and not. I am used to it enough that I know there are days when I am not going to get anything done and have come to accept that there’s no use beating myself up over it; that will only make things worse because guilt feeds my depression and makes it last longer. Sleep is one of the things that helps, but it seems I have to force myself to get sleep because getting ready for bed takes too much effort.

So… all of this is to explain why this blog post is delayed, and being posted in the afternoon instead of the morning. Once my spoons were replenished toward the end of last week, I didn’t have time to catch up on everything and scheduling blog posts was one of the easy things to set aside.

But, I am also writing this post as a reminder. Sometimes people who seem perfectly fine aren’t. And sometimes they need extra understanding or extra help even when there’s no visible reason why they should. If you have enough spoons, and you see someone who is running low, please consider doing something to help them out. Even a small thing for you could be huge for them.

Misc Monday ~ in which I become one of the 3%

I did something this weekend which I have been wanting to do for a while: I donated blood.

No big deal, right? Yay me. But, it got me thinking. (Part of the reason for the thinking was some of the paperwork & promotional material they had on hand at the donation site.) Why had I not donated before? I’ve been eligible (off & on) since I was old enough, and this is the first time I donated.

Well, I guess it’s the same reasons a lot of eligible people don’t donate. Too busy, too much of a hassle to go somewhere to do it, and – the big one for most people – NEEDLES. Ick. Giving blood for lab work is bad enough; you want me to voluntarily get a needle stuck in me?

And yet, I don’t really feel that way about needles. Shots are no big deal. Blood work (now) isn’t much worse. Just don’t make me watch the needle going in, and I’m fine. (When I was a kid the story was different and involved a tech trying and failing to find my vein multiple times, but that was then and this is now.)

Anyway, I finally got there, thanks in no small part to my dad booking the appointment for me. I’d been wanting to go donate, but he made the extra push that got me off my butt to actually do it.

And while I was there, I found out that only 37% of the American public is eligible to donate. Between permanent disqualifications (diseases, lifestyle, medications), temporary ones (shorter term illnesses, international travel, vaccines), and age restrictions, that leaves only 37% of the population who can donate. And of that percentage, only 5% do donate. In my specific area? Make it 3%. Yes. You read that right. Only 3% of people in my area donate blood.

And I hadn’t been… why again? Because it was too much of a bother.

Yeah. That’s gonna change.

With the current political climate, I’ve been trying to come up with things I can do to make a change for the better. This is one of them.

WIP Weds… or not

Okay, this is the point where I’m supposed to share my crafting progress pictures. Except… this week I don’t have any. Instead of doing much knitting (or crochet or sewing or anything else) I’ve been playing Stardew Valley.

What is Stardew Valley? It’s a farming (and foraging and adventuring and mining…) simulator game for many consoles and on PC/Mac. I’ve heard it compared to Harvest Moon, if you know that game. (I haven’t played it.) Time management is crucial here, but it’s pretty good (at least at the beginning – I’m in Fall of Year One) at reminding you about important dates.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some corn to harvest.


Ten On Tuesday ~ Holiday Happiness

Hi Everyone,
The Ten On Tuesday topic for Tuesday, December 8, 2015, is 10 Things You Truly Enjoy About the Holiday Season.
Have fun!

This is a fun topic. There is a lot I enjoy about this season! I’m going to list the first ten that come to mind, in no order of preference…

  1. The Messiah sing-along. (Fresh in my mind, since that was Monday night.)
  2. Disneyland all dressed up for Christmastime! (And no one is surprised…)
  3. Singing Christmas carols.
  4. Listening to Christmas carols.
  5. Watching a wonderful local (annual) production of “The Christmas Carol”.
  6. Cookie baking! Yum.
  7. Visiting with friends and family.
  8. Wrapping presents and putting them under the tree. I don’t really have a true explanation for why, but it just makes me happy.
  9. The weather. Especially when combined with holiday treats like peppermint hot chocolate and hot cider.
  10. Driving around and looking at Christmas light displays. All the sparkly lights feel so festive and happy.

Happy holidays, everyone!

Ten On Tuesday ~ November

Hi Everyone,
The Ten On Tuesday topic for Tuesday, December 1, 2015 is 10 Best Things You Did In November.
Have fun!

Rabbit rabbit rabbit! Happy December, everyone! Let’s see what I did last month, hmm? It was a relatively quiet month (especially compared to past Novembers – such as three years ago, when I got engaged at the end of November). Quiet can be good, though! I enjoyed last month, even though it was a fairly calm month.

  1. Caroling rehearsals! We perform with a local theatre company and sing in Victorian costume. Great way to bring in money for the company’s slow time.
  2. Baked an apple pie. I think I may have been able to find my grandma’s pie recipe, so this makes me very happy.
  3. Thanksgiving with my family. It was lovely.
  4. Cuddled with Mr. Wyrm and Suzy-cat.
  5. Bought spiced cider from Trader Joe’s! Yum. I love that stuff. (Not quite as good as home-mulled cider, but instead of taking hours on the stove or in the Crock Pot, it takes a minute or two in the microwave.)
  6. Watched “The Full Monty” (stage production) live at one of my local community theatres.
  7. Went to brunch and the 75th anniversary of “Fantasia” with some friends.
  8. Saw the doctor. Not what people normally think of as a “best thing” to do, but it meant I was able to get meds to help me through this allergy / cold / whatever season, so I count it as a wonderful thing.
  9. Came home from a wonderful trip to Disney World! Yeah, this wasn’t quite as nice a thing as the trip itself, but it was still nice to be home.
  10. Played games on the PS4. (Diablo III, currently.) This may seem like a minor thing, but it was relaxing and fun. And that is one of the best things I can do for myself.

Have a great December!

Ten on Tuesday ~ Thankful in 2015

Good morning everyone, and happy Thanksgiving week to my fellow Americans! (Happy Tuesday to everyone else…)

The Ten On Tuesday topic for Tuesday, November 24, 2015 is 10 Things You Are Thankful For Right Now. I added the “right now” because we do this topic every year and I’m hoping by focusing on things we are thankful for right now we can avoid being repetitive. That being said, it’s your blog and you can approach this however you like!

Have fun and Happy Thanksgiving to those in the US!

This is a traditional topic for the Ten on Tuesday just before Thanksgiving, so I do appreciate the chance to make it slightly different each year. Granted, there are some things that remain the same, but there are others that change a bit. It’s a good reminder to be thankful for what we have instead of focusing on what we don’t.

  1. My family. This is a regular one, but for good reason. I am very thankful for the love and support I get every day from my entire family.
  2. Our health. Mr. Wyrm and I are both still getting over colds, but in general we’re in pretty good health. That is an improvement, and I’m so grateful for it.
  3. Kitty lovin’! Some of my other friends mention periodically how their cats aren’t cuddlers. I love that mine is.
  4. Rain! There’s rain in the forecast. As a Californian, this is something I can’t take for granted, and am always thankful of when it happens.
  5. Work. I have a job. This is something I sometimes forget to be thankful for. (I haven’t been out of work recently, so that’s not the issue. It’s just so much easier to complain about work than be grateful to have it.) And on top of that, the people who run our company treat the employees like people. Also not something to take for granted.
  6. Taking home videos is really easy. It makes it easy to capture silly moments when my nephew is doing something particularly cute, for example.
  7. Apple Pay from my watch is super convenient. This may seem a silly thing to be thankful for (and it is certainly a First World thing) but it has made my life easier while I’ve been doing holiday shopping and trying to juggle all the things. One less thing to juggle.
  8. My new computer. I didn’t realize how much was lacking from my old computer until Mr. Wyrm convinced me it was time for an upgrade.
  9. The local theatre scene. I don’t go see as much theatre as I want to but I do love that we have so many choices around and they’re such good quality. I also love that I’m part of the (community) theatre scene, and so know at least one person involved in nearly every production I go see.
  10. Life. My life is good right now. I don’t always have something specific to be thankful for, but that doesn’t mean I’m not thankful.

I hope you all have a great week, whether this is Thanksgiving week for you or not! It’s never a bad thing to reflect on the good in our lives instead of the bad.

Ten On Tuesday ~ Home Sweet Home

The Ten on Tuesday topic for 6/30/2015 is 10 Things You Love About Your Home.
Have fun!

My home, huh? Cool, let’s see what I come up with:

1. It’s not a rental. It is nice to be building equity in a home.

2. We have a working AC and heater. After growing up without AC, and having lived in apartments with sketchy heating, this is major.

3. It’s in a nice town. (City? Whatever.) Doesn’t feel too huge, but it’s still big enough that I am happy. I’m very much a suburbs girl, and I feel very at home here.

4. We aren’t swimming in it. The size of the house is perfect for me and Mr. Wyrm.

5. Someone else does the landscaping. (We have an HOA that handles it.) Don’t get me wrong, I like gardening. But I never have/make the time for it these days, so it’s nice that I don’t have to.

6. We have a garage. And we can actually put a car in it. (I’m so used to either not having a garage – apartment living again – or having a garage that is full of stuff instead of cars, that this is a novelty.) It would be nice if it was bigger, since it’s only a 1-car garage, but better than nothing!

7. We have high ceilings. This makes heating sometimes annoying, but it shows off our artwork really nicely.

8. Modern kitchen! The person who had the place before us did a bunch of upgrades, and I love cooking in it.

9. Walking distance to our favorite local Mexican restaurant! We can have margaritas without worrying about who’s gotta drive home!

10. We have a good blend of carpet and hardwood floors. I love them both, and they’re in the right places. (For instance, unlike in a prior home, I don’t step out of bed and onto a hardwood floor. I do love having carpeting under my bed.)

I do love where I live. How about you?